A year ago today, I was attending the first bodybuilding competition for my friend Tammy. She and I have both made many changes in our bodies and lives over the last few years (see her blog at: http://liftingmyspirits.wordpress.com/). I could not have been more proud of my friend and yet, there was a part of me that felt very distant, apart from the event. At the time, I really had no idea whether I would ever be able to workout again and if I could what it would look like.  I walked around outside during the break between judging and the evening show and enjoyed the scenery. Lake Tahoe is always beautiful and that day was no different.  I spent a lot of time reflecting while I wandered down the street passing tourists and shops.

I recall having a discussion with two women at my table during the evening show. One was a trainer from my gym and the other was one of her clients. We chatted about the gym and health issues. I think the other woman had been recovering from some sort of leg surgery. Again, I wondered what my recovery would be like.  Would I lift weights? Would I ever reach the level of strength I had achieved prior to the injuries, car accident, illness, and subsequent diagnosis with and surgery for TAA?

As I blogged a year ago, I was pretty certain that I would never compete and I am very certain now. I don’t have the willingness to make the sacrifices necessary for competition. Besides, as I mentioned yesterday, I am currently learning a yoga practice and there are no bodybuilding events for yogis.

There is one thing…

If you happened to catch my blog from last year, you know that I mentioned something about making a purchase even if I did not compete. I did do that:

I bought myself a pair of Lucite heels! This is what they look like. Have I worn them anywhere other than in the house? Of course not! Do you think I want to break my neck? They have 5 1/2 inch heels!!